Getting Healthy Is a Lonely Endeavor...

Today I really sat down and thought about my efforts to get healthy. And I considered my friends and family and how they have impacted that.

And I realized that making the decision to get healthy is a very very lonely endeavor in a sea of 20-somethings who have either given up any hope of liking their bodies, just don't give a fuck or already have great bodies and simply have to maintain. It is not that any of them don't support a decision by me to get healthier but many of them simply don't understand.

Say, "I look fat" to a skinny girl and she'll say NO YOU DON'T. Say it to a friend who weighs more than you and she'll say NO YOU DON'T. Simply put, they either don't want to agree with you or they really don't agree with you. In their eyes you aren't fat. And telling them that 180+ lbs on a 5'6" frame is considered overweight simply doesn't change that perspective.

Try going out to eat with you friends. I'm sorry but if fries are on the menu it literally KILLS me not to order them. And when everyone else is getting slices of pizza, streak slathered in blue cheese and covered in bacon and frothy adult beverages it is literally impossible not to make a bad choice as well. If someone orders something decadent I invariably end up doing the same. Even if to begin with my intentions were good.

A night on the town equals almost a thousand calories in booze and mixers. Considered the fun one by a majority of my friends, if I head out and am not downing shots and beers they immediately convince me to do otherwise. And quite frankly, being the sober one in a sea of drunkards is not much fun.

In the end, to achieve my goal, I have to take myself out of these detrimental situations. And that often means I miss out on fun times with my friends. Given the option to spend the day working out or sit on a patio drinking frozen beverages, 9 out of 10 of my friends will choose the second option. None of them are in the same get fit boat I am in and those that are starting to get healthy are going to yoga classes (which I cannot stand) or go to different gyms. I guess it is time to figure out who that one out of 10 is going to spend their day being active or eating healthy. And figuring out who has been supportive and who hasn't has been a very eye-opening experience this past week. A little bit of my frustration might stem from some hurtful comments I've had come my way from friends who don't understand my decisions.

What do you guys do for fun on the weekends? How do you work social activities into your get healthy routine? I am really struggling with this in the face of what my friends are up to.

My Trainer is the Devil

I can't walk. And it is all his fault.

Yesterday, after a 15 minute run on the treadmill, Josh spent an hour working on my legs. And I mean WORKING.

Leg Presses with 125 lbs. Other leg exercises that I don't know what they are called with 70-110 lbs. Lunges. Hundreds of lunges. Calf raises with 90 lbs. Some butt workout with 70 lbs. I want to die today.

10 minutes of stretching in which he pushes on my back to force a deeper stretch.

Holy shit I hate everything about this guy.

And secretly I love him. If he keeps working me this hard I'm going to have the best ass in the state of GA.

I'm a little nervous about an hour of arm workouts next Tuesday.

Today, my focus is the food Josh is making me eat. In fact. I turned down a day of food tasting tomorrow because I do not think my self-discipline can handle it. And damnit, I'm taking this seriously.

So I need something fun to do that is cheap and doesn't involve food or beer. Maybe I will go hang out at the park...

What are your weekend plans?

HOLY NUTELLA!

WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE?!?!?!?!

I don't know how I haven't tried this sooner but I am officially obsessed with Nutella. That shit is the JAM.

Go to their website and enter to win a free case. You're welcome.

So, tell me, Nutella lovers, how do you eat Nutella? I tried it on toast but I need more suggestions. AND GO.

I'm BAAACCCCKKKK

Okay, I've had several people complain because I haven't been blogging. Never fear bitches I'm back!

Back and bigger than EVER.

No really, tipping the poor glass scale in my bathroom at 180.

This weekend, I said WTF is wrong with you? Get it together girl!

So, I stopped and bought a pair of Nike Frees to motivate me to keep hitting the gym. And I signed up for a personal trainer.

Who flaked on the first day.

Which meant today I had a nice two-a-day. And shelled out 500 bucks for training sessions twice a week. Boom. My trainer, Josh for the day, was awesome. He kicked my ass despite the fact that it was a complimentary session which really impressed me. My trainer going forward is a guy named Greg who trains Josh for MMA. Apparently he works with athletes for the most part and has very few female clients. I will seriously be getting ass in shape.

This week's goal: Drink a gallon of water a day. According to Josh this will keep me hydrated and prevent my body from withholding water and aid my muscles in recovery. I wasn't able to do it today since I didn't find out until 6 pm but the rest of the week it will happen.

I've decided I will have one cheat day a week. I'm not making it a set day as you never know when something will come up but once I use it, it is GONE.

How are your fitness goals for 2011 coming along? What has you motivated these days?

AND DID YOU MISS ME?